oh wait no one

but on the other bipolar hand of the situation..
sometimes i'm glad i'm not "committed" to anyone. because seeing how some girls are... just makes me wanna fucking vomit. how the hell can you be so obsessed with someone who is just kicking your ass? man get over it. not like i'm one to talk about "getting over" stuff but at least the losers i wish i had aren't total douchebags to me. i don't let myself get kicked around. like damn ladies.. have some respect. really. i hate listening to danielle be so obsessed over her boyfriend and their AWESOME sex and AWESOME weed and AWESOME parties (except there aren't any parties i just wanted to seem like janice ian there for a second). especially since, i mean, i know he likes her and shit but, HE ISN'T SO INTO IT. its a fucking high school relationship. just shut up already! oh its so cool you're gonna graduate early because of him and plan out your kids and your kids' aunts and uncles over him. ummm... you're fucking 15 dude. shut the fuck up! jfklsdajf;sdlkjdsljfoiewjfoaweji how the hell can you let someone be SO in control of you when they're not even doing anything? just... NO. god get over being so obsessed with your stupid boyfriends. and quit joking that i need to get laid just because i'm the only one at our table who doesn't sit there and spill all the dirty sex secrets of my life. who the fuck cares... i don't understand WHY i need to do anything. and no i'm not "prude" either. i just don't feel like you know, giving it up and sucking the dick of the next dude i see, thanks! if i fuckin liked someone who i trusted or whatever then sure whatever. whatever happens, happens. BUT NOTHING HAS FUCKING HAPPENED SO WHY DO IT? you do it. cool. BECAUSE YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND YOU RETARD. and more fucking power to you! congrats! party! parade! but i don't. so why is it SOO necessary? its not. right. grow up. and quit fucking telling me about how "OMG WE FOUGHT BUT WE'RE OKAY NOW. OMG HE TOTALLY CARES ABOUT ME ITS SO CUTE. NO LIKE.... HE REALLY CARES ABOUT ME. NO HE REALLY DOES. SO MUCH. ITS SO CUTE."

and for once, its NOT jealousy talking. because i sure as hell would NEVER wanna be like that.
i lack in the female traits area far too much for my own good.

i hate looking at you i hate seeing you i hate seeing you talk to her i hate seeing you talk to him i hate your smell i hate your voice i hate talking to you i hate myself
just graduate already. move. or something. out of sight out of mind.

today i laughed at some shitty video with pete and miley and it felt so weird because then i realized i hadn't actually laughed in so long. what is even happening? i feel so fucking worthless. i wish i was pretty. so that way people could realize i am worth getting to know. i hate everything. i don't want to go to school tomorrow and deal with people. i just want to lay in bed forever and watch movies and listen to music. just. fuck. i hate getting involved in anyone/anything because then it never works out and that just crushes my hope even more every fucking time. i have a small flicker of hope that maybe god will feel bad for me later on and give me someone/something wonderful. please. i'm dying over here. do you feel bad yet?

maybe if i keep saying it i'll convince myself already.

SHIT IDR WHAT I HAD BUT W/e. 21 bonus track by young and divine. 22 boy brushed red/too bright to see - underoath. 23 book of love by peter gabriel. 24 nineteen stars meg and dia. 25pace yourself by the higher. 26 you wont know/70x7/maradona/quiet things by bnew. UGH I MISSED A LOT BC IT DELETED THIS SECOND HALF AND I WAS WRITING THEM BY CLICKING SHUFFLE AND FUUUUCK. anyways lol at most of these. ily

aka matison claire ross >:]

ok im on from my phone so i cant do separate lines lol :l anyways here's my list. dont lol at me. 1. calling all skeletons -alkaline trio (OMFG JUST LISTEN). 2. love like rockets/secret crowds by ava. 3. saturday/chicago/patron saint by fawb. 4. everything is alright by mcs. 5. window by good old war. 6. takeoffs and landings by the ataris. 7. nj legion iced tea - adtr. 8. mistakes we knew we were making/existentialism/tension in the terror/big shot - straylight run. 9. sweet child o mine by guns n roses. 10. push by the cure (lol). 11 oh emetophobia by showbread (more lol). 12 the gambler (cutest song youll ever hear)/benson hedges (youll jizz at the beginning js)/roman candle by fun. 13 miami by tbs. 14 suicide sunday by fnb (omg dont judge me). 15 paris tokyo by lupe fiasco. 16 walking by/punk rock princess - soco. 17 vegas by atl. 18 putting a lion to sleep by meriwether. 19 voices by saosin. 20 sweetness by jimmy eat world. (continued lol)

i downloaded one of the only apps for an env2 and it has livejorunal. too bad like nobody uses this anymore. i am bored and in my room listening to the only good song off nothing personal. shut up. i am seeing kevin devine tomorrow. this is exciting. maybe i'll actually talk to him instead of pulling what i dd with john nolan the first time. sigh i'm bored. im me @ trsexists.

MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK
MAE
TASTE OF CHAOS BANDS
TWLOHA
NICK LACHEY 
WICKED


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EDIT AS OF JULY 5TH: 
I ALSO HAVE A BLACK, SIZE SMALL, MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE BLACK PARADE SHIRT. if you're an mcr fan you probably know what  one i'm talking about because EVERYONE has it lmao. but would anyone want it? if you are interested even a little i'll take pics for you to see :) only 10$ negotiable!




( undah da cut )

lots of stuff:
-i still have to rant about blink 182 but that needs a whole other post. so yeah.

-i don't know why you text me everyday and ask how my day is then talk to me until we both go to sleep but ALRIGHT. i don't mind it though trust me lol.

-bailey's boyfriend is so nice but she's a DOUCHE now that he's back from vegas. damnnn. good thing he moved lunch periods.

-we got stuff for scheduling for next year today. scheduling is so insanely stressful once you're actually in highschool js. i don't have a lunch period next year LMFAO okayy! this is my schedule so far (not in order)
1.) honors english 10
2.) spanish 3
3.) honors geometry
4.) earth science A first semester STUPID
5.) bio A second semester STUPID
6.) AP american history
7.) honors physics LOL
8.) independent theatre first semester
9.) morning show/adv broadcasting second semester!
i don't get to take film/media studies which is GAY but whatever i still have 2 more years i guess
we got our transcripts today and i'm 13th out of 439 in my class. i really should stop having high expectations for myself, i was surprised when i saw that. i thought i was in the top ten but lol not good enough. obv story of my life.

hanging out with paige tomorrow night, then movie with mati on valentines day ^__^ not going out with josh LMFOAJ ;AMEOWIAOOIJ;O brb kms lol i'm so mean

okay byeeeeeeeeee

lj cut is still lame
-the fob show got cancelled so yeah.
-i've been dedicated to this fucking play so hxc jdlskfajsd ugh. day long rehearsals, waking up at 4am, staying up until 2am, 3 hours sleep, parties, drama. not gonna lie, i'm going to be so upset when its over. i'm gonna miss everyone.
-josh did not fucking hit austin with his car. shut the fuck up and shut the fuck down you don't know what you're even talking about. god damn.
-someone needs to stop fucking flirting with everything that has a penis THANK YOU.

oh and i like christmas songs it reminds me of last year jdslkfajds

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WNlpPJPQWdw

omg ^__^

ps
MATI SMD MY LAYOUT IS BEAUTIFUL :( CRIES OMGG

its a million times better than the stupid drama online ngl.
the only people i love so much that i talk to online are matison, laura, tori, kay, and sarah.
and they hardly count because i talk to them as if they were here most of the time anyways.
i miss mati so much jflkdsajflsdf fuck hurricanes.

four day weekend:
ignore the outright lameness of how i am recounting the events that happened
thursday - stage crew after school, everyone left, helped the cast (aka kristi, kate, and mrs cook) paint the signs that we're putting up on 256. ordered pizza there. partied and listened to spring awakening all night with them. fuck yeah.

friday- went to the game. met kenzie and ruun there. kenzie left to hang out with god knows who because i wouldn't go find joe for her. hung out with ruun. jessie had a breakdown. she left. stayed with tyler, caelyn, leah, and joey and some other kid that i didn't know who he was. stayed with tyler all night until the game was over.. did.. stuff with.. yeah.. lmao lfjds.

saturday- stayed the night at danielle's, updated on dramaaaaaa, talked to mike and riley and ross on the phone all night, made food, partied, more drama, tyler asked me out and i said no lawl what?, sat outside in the cold and talked

sunday- dani came to my house, walked to the skate park, RILEY AND ROSS WERE ASSHOLES :[, went home, got ready, movies, met ethan and sierra there, chilled with them, ethans a freak, went to starbucks, i went to get a drink and i came back and dani and sierra yelled at ethan so he left, we walked to smoothie king down the street, stayed in drews car for like 15 minutes because he's saweet, went home and dani's staying the night, she talked to mike forever, then riley. i talked to ross for like an hour, he's an ass and won't tell me something that he mentioned >:[, made a fire in the firepit in my backyard, failed, came inside and made food and talked more, fell asleep

monday- WOKE UP AND BORED. homework day :[ dani's leaving.


moral of the story: DON'T DO DRUGS BECAUSE YOURE FUCKING RETARDED IF YOU DO.
i swear ill never do that shit ever omg lol

i don't care how weird this sounds
but why the hell do people all of a sudden decide to be interested me THIS year?
apparently i was invisible up until now
flirting is awkward as crap
don't do it
okay? okay


going to the haunted house with amanda, ross, danielle, riley, emily, mike, and tyler this weekend.
hahahah at us + soph boys.

nothing special
school started. its lame.
jess broke up with brandon. got back together with him in like 10 hours.
new fob song/clip is good.

lol last night i dont feel like talking about too much but yeah..
went to the vfest with paige and met up with her bf~ paul and his friend ben
they're really cool but paige was making it awkward and she and paul were walking really fucking fast for no reason (it was only paige but they were holding hands so :|) so i was like basically walking around with ben the whole time
a lot of black people came up to him lolol
:| idk but yeah he is a really sweet kid
who likes some slut 8th grader who decided to call me on the phone last night :| lol

have a dream in new orleans fall in love in chicagooo
mati showed me the coolest song that had been stalking her lmao but i love it
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